gracecje

the feeling of being loved and cherished despite my faults, my flaws and the N number of times I screwed him over and over again.
I really hope this feeling will never go away..

the surface of every relationship is always flowery and beautiful but what lies underneath is the true pillar of strength that sustains it. Thank you for being the pillar b. I love you, and I always will :) 

2011 was a good year for me. 
traveled quite abit during the first quarter. crossed over 10 cities in the span of 1 month. dived 14,000 ft off the air. got my heart broken (again). made a significant few life changing decisions. ended a job i heart so much in Australia. bid a painful farewell with my friends in Aus. ended a long term relationship. came home for good. made a couple of new friends. rekindled old friendships. got myself a new job . met him. fell in love. grew a substantial amount of hatred towards my job. most importantly, i've grown. in fact, i've grown so much wiser this year than any other amount of years combined. it was somewhat bizarre and difficult at a certain point of time, but i pulled it thorugh..so yayy!   

2011 will definitely be a year I will fondly look back upon.

My New Year's Resolution

1. Get a new job (of substance) by May 
2. Exercise at least twice a week. I need to toneee up yo 
3. To love, unconditionally
4. save at least 1/4 of my monthly salary. 
5. eat more fruits and vege :)
6. clean my room weekly.
7. cook up a meal at least once a week

Hello 2012! Bring it ON :)   

happily messed up...
I don't want this to be just a dream.....

 i don't even watch football............................................................

we met from an unfortunate event which later developed into a friendship i'll always treasure..you are exactly like me in many ways and we just click easily... all this while, you are the bad person, always portraying yourself as the evil one, telling me all the bad things you did and never once i shy away from you because a true friend will always accepts you for who you are. I still remember you calling me at 12am sharp on my bday when you were abroad, always chauffeuring me here and there, paying for my meals and listening to my emo rants despite how un-emo you are. yesterday, my perception about you changed completely, despite how bad u call urself i was impressed!! by how you handled the situation. At work u will still find time to whatsapp with me despite being busy (can tell by the amount of typo lol), my own bf dont even bother to reply!...u always portray urself as someone you're not (selfish, vain, arrogant, mean, a player) and why is that so when u are actually very nice? this morning you told me i do not know you well, you are so wrong because i (i think) i know you damn well. perhaps its true when they say ppl only blurts out the truth when they are intoxicated...when you were drunk, you told me that you are (the real) Mr. Nice Guy..and I certainly believe. 
I guess things aren't always what they seem..the good is not always good and bad is not always bad. hahaha 

Happy 5 years of friendship to us :)  I'm glad our lives crossed path.  

3 months had gone away but i'll never ever forget.....

at backpackers now.

leaving Kyoto tomorrow evening and gonna spend the rest of the week at Osaka before heading back to Australia..aih happens to me all the time i get extremely emo to leave a place i'm attached too..now it's here city of Kyoto, Kansai, Japan. it's not just beautiful here, the food is good and you can have almost everything, the people are nice and polite, the streets are clean, the air is fresh and crisp, the toilets have seat warmer! and i'm so in love with this beautiful city. aih.

some stupid people even ask me to leave Japan cos of the radiation levels. honestly 10 days here; i was not even affected by the radiation/quake situation even a tiny bit but its the people/media that spoils my mood. imagining explaining to different ppl everyday that the radiation level in tokyo is SAFE despite being higher than normal..can you get it? go do research lah (not sites from your local newspaper or CNN that tends to exaggerate story to the max.) i read so many news and they like to use words like "radiation plume COULD reach tokyo" "Winds MIGHT carry radiation particles" "Resident FEARS....." words like these are so misleading: i can tell you that you COULD die tomorrow if you don't drive safely or I might get food poisoning if I dine from a unhygienic establishment. TRUE what! They're not telling lies radiation levels increased/blackout in Tokyo/radiation is harmful to human health but thats not the complete truth ...I was in Tokyo for 5 days and truth is : I'd not experience any black out at all; no delays on trains at all  (maybe 2 minute wait is a delay though), sibeh plenty of supplies; food is everywhere, people are everywhere, radiation level is NOT HIGH (very safe for human) though being higher than what it is normally is. 

So when journalists say that the radiation level in Tokyo has increased 20 times but is not detrimental to your health, the “not detrimental to your health” phrase doesn’t sound believable because the “20 times” sounds “detrimental” to your health. Except for the article in the Japan Times, all other articles using this phrase (that the “radiation levels has increased 20 times but is not detrimental to your health”), do not mention numbers and figures to substantiate their affirmation, only that stressful number “20.” Little does everybody know that the 20 times of the fraction .04 mSv is .80 mSv (80.9 mrem where 0.01x=.809mSv)) which is significantly less than the 50,000 mrem, the level where radiation sickness occurs.

In conclusion, when journalists of dubious intelligence report that the radiation levels have risen 20 times without substantiating numbers, they are SENSATIONALISING the news, causing a panic situation that affects business very badly and consequently, the financial future of Japan.

so getting a chest x ray is even more dangerous than traveling to Tokyo! dont go X-Ray lah..or never go India where radiation is significantly high all year round...dont even take an airplane as the radiation is 10 times higher than public bus..now that i'm in Kansai region, radiation lagi insignificant (i'm even at a safer level than you) people just won't stop because I'm in Japan. Hello, Japan is damn big okay! the nuclear meltdown  is in Fukushima lah...

Conclusion is I hate dumb people!! I might be mean but I srsly dont like ppl to ruin my holiday when everything is perfectly fine (so far). if anything bad (choi) happens, I will surely tweet it; but the real situation is everything has been really good. (this is 10 times better than my Bali trip)..When I say, I didnt like Bali, I meant it...and now I love Japan to the max!! Honestly i wouldnt even know what happened to Japan if I didn't read the news.. such a waste for ppl who cancel their trip just because of some dubious reports they read from the papers.. if you are really concerned, there are many ways you can donate to the victims of the tsunami instead of helping the media to sensationalize the situation from bad to worst . what they need now is to regain economic strength not speculations.
ok gotta sleep.arashimaya tomorrow!

bai.

the world is a funny place..
always becareful for what you wished for because you might get what you want after all, at a very wrong time, wrong place..


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it really would have worked out if we met 5 years ago, not 5 months ago....